My Life

2008-07-27T11:03:00.001+08:00

HE HAS MOVED.

darontana.wordpress.com

relink please people :D

2008-07-27T10:37:00.005+08:00

Daron has henceforth decided to type in proper English on his blog.

It feels really unusual to make this transition between Internet lingo and proper English, but I guess it's a good change. I think typing in proper English would remove that level of informality and childishness that have been inherent in my blog posts all these time.

And of course typing in proper English would allow me to discuss issues without sounding like a little kid trying to talk Shakespeare. And for some reason I think reading posts that are written in proper English are also easier to read. For some unfathomable reason.

2008-07-27T10:20:00.003+08:00

y'know, sometimes the saying that "mother knows best" isn't wrong.

usually i never ever do speak to my mother regarding my personal problems. "why should i anyway?" i would constantly think to myself. i'd usually, in fact, safeguard my personal problems from her extremely protectively.

but somehow when everyone else seems to have turned against you and you have nowhere else to go, you'll realise that you have no other choice.

talking to mum just convinced me that what i'm going through was inevitable: she had in fact tried to warn me from the start that perhaps some decisions i made regarding friendships aren't the wisest.

i've learnt the hard way i guess. maybe sometimes it's just best to heed advice, although in our rebellious, cavalier teenage age it's a little hard to follow this general rule of thumb.

i've made my choice though.

at least i think i have.

but yea sometimes certain things in life just arrive as a wakeup call. as if to wake you up from the disillusion that life's a bed of roses and the friends around you are just perfect and will stick around with you through thick and thin.

yea right. this bed of roses will just be roses full of thorns. how literal an interpretation of backstabbing.

reality check people.

2008-07-26T23:15:00.005+08:00

sorta figured that since i had nothing nice to say, i might as well not say anything.

but yea dramafeste was such a blast! well done hullett and everyone because it was such a fantastic play! was really thought-provoking and i wasn't sure whether or not to laugh or cry sometimes. well done to (i'm sorry i don't know his name) for most promising young actor because he really really really really really deserves it! and gregory antono mr-worrywart for best actor (:

buckley was real good too, and i was quite surprised how they managed to pull the rather disjointed elements together in the ending, but KUDOS TO RICHARD you were fabulous as the PA (: really really realistic (oh wow cool alliteration) so well done! :D

well done to everyone in other words (: sad that i didn't get to catch bayley's one because a lot of people said it was good! sad that i can't pass judgement on the other plays but i'm sure everyone did their best and put on fantastic plays.

sometimes i wonder whether competitions are good or bad. results really do discourage people sometimes no? results sometimes serve as a wakeup call for those who have been blindly pursuing dreams, yet they give false hope to people sometimes too.

mmm. but then competition is inevitable no?

okay i'm not talking sense.

2008-07-24T13:40:00.002+08:00

heh off for bass examination now. even though it's only 1.40pm i'd rather go there early to calm down.

(and mug last minute scales fingerings!)

daron wishes himself good luck, and apologises to all who would like to see him alive after the examination.

please do attend my funeral! thanks.

with love,
daron xD

2008-07-23T22:55:00.006+08:00

- taken down for obvious reasons -

-.-

2008-07-23T19:24:00.003+08:00

let's predict a score sheet for my double bass exam once i get the results back a few months later.

Piece A - 20/30
Piece B - 20/30
Piece C - 20/30

(heh i predicted a pass for all three pieces woohoo how incredibly optimistic)

Scales - 0/21 (which some luck i might get a 1/21)
Sight Reading - 13/21 (fail by one mark!)
Aural - 12/18 (pass :D)

Total: 85/150 (EPIC PHAIL.)

goes to show how prepared i am for this examination. sheesh.

OH SCREW SCALES. IF I DIDN'T HAVE SCALES I'D PROBABLY BE A ZILLION TIMES MORE CONFIDENT FOR THIS EXAMINATION.

i'm just left with a few more hours to memorise that junkload of scales.

go daron.

-.-

-throws double bass out of window-

hinthint: exam's at 4.27pm tomorrow, wish me good luck via sms :D hahahahahaha, i'll need it. send earlier though, i don't think my handphone will be switched on after 4pm. y'know, prep time.

2008-07-22T21:42:00.001+08:00

i find it horribly amusing that my exam piece was composed for a shakespeare play.

i can almost imagine how a piece titled "macbeth" would sound like.

or like the chinese parody of macbeth, "mai kan bei" (which is our name for macbeth).

the piece would probably go something like:

(to the tune of black eyed pea's my humps)
mai kan, mai kan mai kan mai kan!

2008-07-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

first day of school today after that one week "holiday", and the day went by surprisingly quickly, despite the fact that i was keeping my fingers crossed that the teachers would forget about our holiday homework.

had racial harmony for assembly first thing in the morn, and was kinda disappointed by the performance by the groups today. always thought racial harmony day was a big important event, but somehow this year's ceremony was really lackluster and disappointing.

i really wonder: racial boundaries don't really exist in society today, but somehow events such as racial harmony seems to constantly remind us that regardless of whether we acknowledge it or not, racial differences do exist between us, and hence we must smoothen out these edges.

honestly, i don't even see the need of racial harmony day. i don't even usually think of the different races in singapore, but somehow because of racial harmony day i am constantly reminded of this divide -.-

okay i notice my blog is really boring, i don't really post much juicy stuff ;D

2008-07-19T13:05:00.003+08:00

RISE BBQ last night, albeit mad and insane with the water bombs and all, left me feeling quite empty and sad after that.

after this we wouldn't have the sec 4s there anymore to help us and lead us, and now the weight of leading the ensemble has been passed to us.

it's sad, really. ): will really miss the sec4s, but i guess it's all part and parcel of growing up. promise to lead the ensemble to greater heights, or at least i hope :D

RISE EXCO '09, because i insist we're awesome.

2008-07-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

haven't had time to just sit back, relax and breathe recently, with the influx of responsibilities and commitments flooding in.

not sure if i'm truly ready for the job, but i'll definitely do my best, and i won't misplace the trust you guys placed in me ;D thanks for giving me the opportunity.

thanks to everyone for helping me so much, i'm really overly dependent on all of you guys for your help sometimes, and i really appreciate everything. ;D

2008-07-07T16:53:00.000+08:00

i guess i read too much into things at times. sometimes i should just let nature take its course ;D

superficiality? maybe sometimes it's better for me to just take things on the surface. heh.

now, work. before i screw my life up even worse. :D

2008-07-06T00:15:00.001+08:00

∂esmøn∂. is happy says: (12:15:07 AM)
my stomach is smeeling of durian even after brushing my teeth twice tonight
Team Insecticide. says: (12:15:18 AM)
you can smell your stomach?
Team Insecticide. says: (12:15:19 AM)
eew.
daron. says: (12:15:23 AM)
HAHAHA.
∂esmøn∂. is happy says: (12:15:25 AM)
i mean mouth
∂esmøn∂. is happy says: (12:15:27 AM)
=DD
Team Insecticide. says: (12:15:31 AM)
ah okay.
m∂ҳ says: (12:15:39 AM)
cool. you have an internal nose
Team Insecticide. says: (12:15:43 AM)
i wouldnt wanna smell my iced lemon tea mixed with chicken rice and all that
Team Insecticide. says: (12:15:49 AM)
I WOULDN'T SMELL KAILUN'S STOMACH
Team Insecticide. says: (12:15:50 AM)
omg.
m∂ҳ says: (12:15:57 AM)
hahaha
∂esmøn∂. is happy says: (12:16:04 AM)
eeee

2008-07-05T18:23:00.002+08:00

life's just been so crazy lately, i can't even find time to sit down for a proper post. it's the weekend now, and i've just spent the entire saturday sleeping away, replenishing whatever lost sleep i've had during the course of the past week.

term 3 started off insanely, with every horror from the past term coming back to haunt us in addition to more things.

yea well i suppose you sorta guess what i mean. it's the same problem that's been plaguing tons of sec 3s. >.> elections damn it.

having r&r talking to mummy about this issue kinda sets me thinking: do i want to go all out and stretch myself to the maximum, or do i want to just commit wholeheartedly to one single commitment?

yea well i know there're complications if i choose the first option: next year's gonna be SYF and sydney opera house, and as much as i'd like to take up multiple commitments i don't see how the higher authorities are gonna take it lightly. (ahem. censorship there.)

looking at everyone in tons of CCA yet being allowed to take up multiple roles kinda makes me feel jealous at times. jealous at how they can be allowed to do that whereas i'm being held back by my one CCA.

not being stuckup or anything, but i think i'm capable of more sometimes. i wonder whether i should just limit my options to one CCA.

not saying that i don't like my CCA. i love my CCA. i love the people in it, and i know that i have an obligation to RISE.

when i came into RISE in secondary 1, it made me feel at home at RI, and i can safely say that RISE was the reason behind me getting integrated to the raffles life.

with all the great seniors and batchmates, it's hard not to like RISE.

i chose not to take up a merit CCA. i don't know, saw no need of having a merit CCA when it would just take up additional time. not sure if i made the right decision then, because it seems like a terrible habit of prefects to take up quadrillion merit CCAs just for the sake of CCA points.

yet in sec 2, i kinda got shoved into a second commitment: RIPB. kinda accidental, wasn't even expecting to make it. but nonetheless, i met great people in RIPB. most importantly, without RIPB, i guess i'd never have met or gotten close to my group of great friends.

but somehow i don't quite feel that bond with RIPB yet. i suppose it's gotta do with the fact that this is only my first year in the board, and i'm not quite sure if i'm ready to take up the challenges of RIPB.

and the challenges in RISE, while definitely just as daunting, seem more prepared to me. in RISE, i know there'll be my friends there to support me.

okay because i can't bring myself to finish this post, i think i'll stop here. i don't even know what compelled me to write this post.

but,

i've made my choice.

2008-07-02T20:11:00.003+08:00

because daron feels like he's screwing up his life again.

it's almost like deja vu. my past flashing before me again. sometimes i just wonder whether i ever learn.

this is probably the wrong blog to post in but i don't know. this blog seems strangely superficial.

needs to set his priorities right.

2008-06-29T19:51:00.002+08:00

fierce. and note the similarities ;D

2008-06-29T11:06:00.001+08:00

wow life and school has just been continually sapping my life through this week, and it's amazing how i've held out till today (to have more work!)

and here's a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY to mush/shayne and a not so belated happy birthday to marian :D

ah well i'm so tired i completely forgot to wish people happy birthday on my blog. sheeesh.

2008-06-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

I DECLARE THIS TO BE MY NEW FAVOURITE SONG.

i blame shayne for making me like this song ;D

2008-06-24T18:04:00.002+08:00

alright school didn't have that great a start, what with the tons of holiday homework still left undone lying in stacks in my room.

guess i only have myself to blame: i knew i was going to be busy for the entire holidays, yet i procrastinated till the end of the holidays.

(like. 12 midnight before school reopens. yay.)

had bass lesson after school today, and i'm kinda disappointed with my playing. there's only slightly more than a month to my examination, and yet i'm still not playing up till standard i guess.

sure ms yeo says "not bad" for pieces here and there, but i've heard myself play better during practices. somehow i can never perform during lessons/examinations.

guess i'd just have to put in an extra little more effort.

finally sent my phone to repairs after bass lesson at wisma, which is so damn far la. then upon arriving and queuing up...

mum: where are your other service centres?
woman there: oh there's one at bishan.
mum: bishan? which part of bishan! my son went online to check the location of service centres but couldn't find anything about bishan!
woman: oh we just opened it, at junction 8. above macdonald's.

BEEEEEP. HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN.

i feel like some himbo now.

or as mush proudly declares me,

BLONDE.

T.T

2008-06-23T00:56:00.003+08:00

an example of how an sms from me would look like now:

"I cant ty e with my hone omg it died"

no punctuations (1 button died), no p, q, r and s (since my 7 button died) and i can't scroll down.

no thanks to the idiot who pushed me into the pool with my phone inside my pocket.

if i could send an sms to him, it'd go like this:

"YOU TU ID IDIOT DIDNT YOU KNOW MY HONE WA IN MY OCKET"

fun stuff.

2008-06-22T15:12:00.002+08:00

under the insistence of nicolette tan that her quiz is not scandalous, i shall attempt it.

1. What's the most scandalous thing you've done?
so much for not being scandalous right ;D uhhhh most scandalous thing. don't know, stuffed myself during a diet? O_o

2. Who is the person you trust the most?
myself i guess. never really devoted all my trust to a certain person. but i guess the person i trust most would be gregory >.< don't know, albeit temporary.

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nope, low self-esteem :D

4. Who is the person that you confide in?
all my good friends i guess. well not really. depends on circumstances.

5. Are you satisfied with yourself?
no, why should i be? i always know i can do much more, but somehow i never find the willpower to do so >.>

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
hmm. good memories?

7. Do you believe in eternal love?
no idea, but i suppose? i doubt it though.

8. Have you broken someone's heart that she tried to commit suicide?
no, duh. moving on.

9. What do you like about yourself?
nothing much? if i'd to pick something i guess it'll be my LALALALALAINSANEHIGH attitude sometimes. note the word sometimes.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
subjective, always changes. next!

11. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
still searching for that answer myself.

12. Do you treasure your family?
i could say i did verbally, but i guess deep down inside i know i don't enough in terms of actions. guess i'm just bad at expressing feelings, although that's hardly a valid excuse.

13. What do you dislike the most?
INSECTS. or anything closely related to insects. similar looking stuffs. like spiders! ROAR.

14. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
heh, that's just a vague vision that people think will happen, but it'll never happen. not going to adopt some false facade of optimism just for this question.

15. What do you regret most in life?
never bringing myself to do things that i know i could do but didn't have the willpower too.

16. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eye?
hmmm. i wish i knew. why do quizzes always like to ask these kinds of terrible questions!

17. Do you love your friends?
i would suppose so, but then again i'm bad at expressing it. platonic love is one weird thing though, you always feel insecure with it.

18. Which date do you like the most?
12TH JANUARY LA DUH. MY BIRTHDAY WHAT. (i assume they didn't mean romantic kind of date? because i'd have nothing to answer with for that kind of questions. :D)

19.If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
dreams don't come true. overly ambitious dreams at least. heh. dreams are just a figment of your imagination la, and if i told you the actual answer to this question i'd have to kill you. ;D

20. If you could travel in time and return to a phase of your life, which phase would it be and why?
my childhood. duh. my life's stupid now.

21. If there's one thing you'd do now, what would it be?
wish my homework away. ;D

People who shall do this, for some reason or another: (damn you guys should seriously get blogs)
1. Gregory
2. Max
3. Desmond (on his old rotting blog?)
4. Richard
5. Mush
6. Chin Jie
7. Alvin
8. Samuel Swee

sorry i'm out of names to fill up with.

Question I'm taking out: 3. Do you believe in eternal love?
Question that replaces: 3. Do you believe in love at first sight?

OH MY GOD HOMEWORK I WISH YOU WOULD DISAPPEAR.

2008-06-20T19:55:00.002+08:00

FUNNNNNNY.

Muttons At Midnight! - What you missed : Justin & Vernon sing about what might happen to you if you forget a Valentine gift, decipher the meaning to the songs "Youre Beautiful" & "The Reason"... - Mediacorp Radio

okay i know i should be doing homework. BUT STILL. FUNNY.

while on the topic of funny things:

Q: What does D.A.M stand for?
A: Mothers Against Dyslexia

A man went on a safari in Africa. The first night out in the wilderness he was disturbed by the sound of drums, which went on all night long. Since the man was still moderately jet-lagged from his trip, he slept a few hours in spite of the noise, but the next morning asked his guide if the drums always sounded all night. "Drums never stop," said the guide. "It is bad if drums stop."

The second night the man was kept up again by the drums. The next morning he complained to the guide, who only shook his head, explaining "Drums never stop. Bad things happen if drums stop."

The third night the drums were louder and closer and more insistent than ever. The man didn't sleep a wink. In the morning, exasperated, he woke the guide, and shouted at him. "The drums! When will they stop?!" The guide, merely shook his head calmly. "Drums never stop. Bad things happen if drums stop."

"But what could happen? What could possibly be that bad?!" cried the man. "Bad things," replied his guide sadly. "Drums stop, Violas start."

A guitarist arrives at the rehearsal to find the bass player and the drummer fighting.
"What's going on?" he asked
The bass player replied "He de-tuned one of my strings!"
"That's OK" said the guitarist. "You can just tune it back up again".
"I can't" said the bass player. "He won't tell me which one!"

okay i have no idea why i just suanned my own instrument.

2008-06-20T18:23:00.000+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

2008-06-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

you know, thinking back, i find the committee sessions/crisis session of the DHS ASEAN Plus Summit amusing, thanks to the presence of the DPRK delegates. (they're actually students from south korea, but they roleplay as north korean delegates so so well.)

take note that these quotes are not exact, they're the gist of what i remember because i didn't copy the transcript of the discussion because i can't type that fast.

[on terrorism]
DPRK delegate: One of the root causes of terrorism is the disproportionate balance of power in the world. The USA, with their knowledge and possession of nuclear bombs, are able to coerce any nation into accepting their decisions because of this threat they wield. Hence, the delegate of the Democratic People's Republic of Korea would like to propose for every nation to be given the permission to wield a nuclear bomb to act as a deterrent to terrorists.

[on terrorism]
DPRK delegate: The DPRK delegate would like to propose that in other to ensure the safe capture of all terrorists on the loose in the world, the superpowers of the world should be allowed to send in their military into any country of the ASEAN to assist in the capturing of the terrorists without prior permission from the country in need, hence creating a unilateral system in which terrorists can be effectively captured.

[on drug trafficking and abuse]
DPRK delegate (again. oops.): Sirs and Ma'ams in this room, I would like to ask everyone of you to challenge the social norms that you all have been brought up with, which is namely the fact that "Drugs are bad." Why does such a notion exist in the first place? Hence, today, I would like to propose a solution to this problem of drug trafficking and abuse, and that would be to legalise drug trade and trafficking in the world. The Golden Triangle mainly comprises countries that are less affluent and this is because they are unable to claim revenue from their major export: opium and other drugs. While the USA is allowed to claim revenue from their sale of weapon arms, these unfortunate countries have been clamped down upon by these selfish superpowers, preventing them from reaping the economic benefit of their natural resources. Now then, I would like to ask you, what is the difference between the sale of arms and drugs? In fact, drugs are harmless, whereas weapons only serve to take lives away from the people in the world afflicted by war.

2008-06-18T21:03:00.004+08:00

reasons why DHS ASEAN Plus Summit press corps are so awesome:

it's okay you can be jealous that you aren't here. ;D DINNER TOMORROW AT DUNMAN HIGH. gonna be a hell lot fun!

2008-06-16T20:08:00.001+08:00

daron is back with more incriminating msn conversations. =D

∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:07:14 PM)
I TELL U A LONG JOKE
m∂ҳ says: (8:07:22 PM)
HUH!?
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:07:22 PM)
GREAT WALL OF CHINA
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:07:25 PM)
I TELLL U A SHORT JOKE
daron. says: (8:07:27 PM)
HAHAHAHA!
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:07:27 PM)
MAX'S THING
m∂ҳ says: (8:07:29 PM)
DESMOND!

daron. says: (8:09:30 PM)
desmond is.
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:09:35 PM)
BIMBO
daron. says: (8:09:36 PM)
slightly deranged i think.
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:09:41 PM)
EH NONONON
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:09:47 PM)
I MEANT I CALL U BIMBO
daron. says: (8:09:48 PM)
o_O
daron. says: (8:09:51 PM)
HAHAHA!
∂esmøn∂. my dp owns says: (8:09:53 PM)
NOT DESMOND IS BIMBO

2008-06-15T21:54:00.001+08:00

daron. says: (9:53:41 PM)
what did you guys talk about after i left?
daron. says: (9:53:42 PM)
:D
m∂ҳ says: (9:53:45 PM)
umm
m∂ҳ says: (9:53:46 PM)
nothing?
daron. says: (9:53:50 PM)
DON'T LIE.
m∂ҳ says: (9:53:51 PM)
it was just me and the girl :D

daron. says: (10:05:05 PM)
a and option is.
daron. says: (10:05:07 PM)
å
m∂ҳ says: (10:05:07 PM)
like whats the point
daron. says: (10:05:10 PM)
b and option is
daron. says: (10:05:13 PM)
∫
m∂ҳ says: (10:05:22 PM)
how about b and shift is B
m∂ҳ says: (10:05:38 PM)
amazing right
m∂ҳ says: (10:05:43 PM)
windows can do that
m∂ҳ says: (10:05:43 PM)
:D

2008-06-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

heh back from penang (:

just a video i wanted to share. might have posted this video before, i have no idea, but i guess just wanted to share this because no other piece of music has moved me that much ever.

2008-06-01T21:37:00.001+08:00

m∂ҳ says: (9:36:10 PM)
you sleep with desmond got hiv ah
(R) desmond. says: (9:36:15 PM)
OI
m∂ҳ says: (9:36:16 PM)
or ciphilis
(R) K@!LuN RICO'08 {高笙} RIPB'08 {DB} 3J'08 {2) RIPC'08 {Canon} 当最后一条河干了，最后一棵树枯了，钱并不能填饱你的肚子。 says: (9:36:19 PM)
yea lorh must go do checkup
daron xD the-entourage.blogspot.com says: (9:36:21 PM)
syphilis i thought?
m∂ҳ says: (9:36:25 PM)
SHIT. i slept with desmond too

2008-06-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

off to RISE camp, THEN off to penang! =D

RISE camp will be from monday to wednesday, then will be in penang till sunday.

meanwhile, let this blog rot?

nah i'll update when i get back from camp, then hopefully in penang i'll have internet :D

if not, then see ya guys soon enough xD

2008-06-01T12:13:00.003+08:00

okay, went to watch prince caspian with asim and nick ng last night, and the movie was just okay-okay.

didn't quite feel the magic that i felt while watching the first movie, but of course, it's understandable: in the first movie we are first introduced to narnia, and there had to be that sense of awe and discovery and all, but it was visibly missing in the second movie.

i mean, even when they first stepped foot in narnia after being called by the horn, their joy while rolling in the sand and waters was just O_o i looked at it and went, "okay, shall we get a move on?"

but yea, sure, the movie was impressive and all, with really stunning CG effects and really stunning scenery, but besides that, i wasn't quite feeling much from the movie.

yea sure fight here fight there, but after a while it really just seemed a little draggy, because it felt like they were fighting for the sake of it.

it's still an okay movie i guess, but not something i'll go "omg so good!" over like how i did for the first movie.

but yea watching movies with nickng and asim was fun, and dinner at fish&co xD

2008-05-31T00:20:00.009+08:00

heh concert was such a blast, and just wanna thank these awesome people.

BASS SECTION: haha okay maybe we didn't play variation H that well, maybe we had our arguments before the thing, but ah well we played well. ;D

MUM, DAD, SIS: heh thanks for being there at EVERY SINGLE concert of mine so much, and thanks for the bouquet of roses they're the best =D love it lots.

RICHARD, DARYL: okay you two rock la fake flowers?! hahaha ah well thanks for being there for me when no one else were there D: and special thanks to daryl for cheering me up when i felt so down.

ASIM, NICK NG: okay i swear i saw you two plugging in earphones, but anyway, thanks for turning up cos i know if you two didn't turn up i'll kill you two =D

KUANGNAN: for being so insane and lifting my spirits during the intermission because i was really losing the motivation to play. ;D your insanity la.

GREGORY: for that awesome good luck sms ;D

MAX: for not being there but cheering me up after that xD stupid mama.

and everyone who made it a success in one way or another?

2008-05-30T11:02:00.002+08:00

heh.

RISE, tis' our big day. let's show everyone what we're made of, and rock the halls of NAFA lee foundation theatre (how anticlimatic. mmmm.)

but yea, we've worked so hard for this. don't tell me that we stayed up every friday till 10.30pm in school for nothing. don't tell me we've had all those extra sectionals for nothing. don't tell me we've had rehearsals every single day for the past week for nothing.

i know we can do this, cos we're RISE (: so what if we've had less than successful concerts last year. so what if our record of concerts thus far hasn't exactly been the best.

we've put in so much darned effort for this concert, and i know we can do this.

bass section: heh you know how hard we've practised that damned variation H, and we're playing it pretty well. let's rock the house alright.

for RISE. (:

2008-05-29T11:42:00.001+08:00

okay, LAF surprisingly went well, considering we had a grand total of two rehearsals before our actual thing, but yea, we pulled through.

and the scgs girls (jessica and shujing?) must have thought we were insane considering how retarded we were behaving in the room.

and thanks mrs seow for the macdonald's breakfast =D

i swear teaching primary four children was remotely entertaining.

IT SUCKED HAVING TO DO IT WHILE HAVING A FEVER THOUGH D:

okay daron isn't making sense anymore.

2008-05-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

because i honestly don't see the point of keeping this blog when it's become a superficial facade of my life.

2008-05-25T18:29:00.005+08:00

seeing that i decided to just get over it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND.

(to follow greg's trend i shall post unglam photos.)

typical act-cuteness, but it's what makes him so funny all the time.

endearingly cute/annoying? O_o okay.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYWAY. don't always be so bimbotic and naive alright.

2008-05-22T21:41:00.001+08:00

heh am i coping?

i don't know.

how lyrical.

or so that's what i wish.

i need someone to tell me what i'm doing is right.

2008-05-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

happy birthday kailun!

because i'm so nice i specially came here to blog to wish you happy birthday. hahahaha. xD

thanks for being such a great friend and everything and always being there for me when i need an emotional pillar of support. thanks for everything! =D

2008-05-19T13:43:00.003+08:00

hehe life's been hectic as hell, and that obviously explains my lack of posts thus far.

sorry yea, but my life's just been insane. so many commitments are just piling up on me, and i really don't know whether i'm having too many things on my platter, and maybe i should just loosen up a bit and drop some of my commitments.

but then comparatively to other people my life's pretty much lala, but i guess it's just my desire to do everything to the best of my ability, and i can see myself compromising aspects of my life here and there.

hmmm. ah well. i shall learn how to manage, no? (:

let's just see where life takes me.

2008-05-13T22:14:00.002+08:00

well i guess there's just been a mild hiatus here lately, but life's been busy and packed as well and i really couldn't find the time to update la i guess.

pretty much just trying to get through the last weeks of the semester, really can't wait for a break during the june holidays. open house's this saturday, and RenaISsance is coming up so soon also, and it really seems like we're not prepared enough yet (or maybe we have too high expectations of ourselves) but i believe we'll make it la.

come on, we're RISE. the imba raffles institution string ensemble. we've got to absolutely kick ass la.

i know i haven't been advertising on my blog, because i'm running into a severe shortage of tickets, and i don't know where i'm going to get tickets from if i advertise and you guys want to go.

but yea, the concert's gonna be so fab. i know it's going to be.

2008-05-11T14:39:00.002+08:00

watched iron man last night at cine with asim and nick ng. ran into mr azlan (sec 1 form teacher who left halfway) which was really coincidental hahaha.

the movie was really good in general (which is saying something considering how often daron bashes good movies into one corner lambasting an insignificant flaw in the movie and leaving it to burn in the depths of hell). robert downey (did i get his name right?) as iron man was really excellent, and his portrayal of all the different emotions and as iron man was really superb and flawless. the character development was also excellent, and one aspect that i really liked about iron man was how they made the show a hell lot more realistic than most comic-book movies, and combined a certain element of naturalism with fantasy. the plot was fast-paced and fantastic, and although it left no moment for a breath or a break it really satisfied me in the end.

can't really think of much complaints for this movie. well, make that none. really, it's an excellent movie, you shouldn't miss it. heh considering the fact that i was never a fan of iron man and the fact that i was so impressed by the movie.

=DD

2008-05-07T19:28:00.002+08:00

heh i notice how i never ever post anything remotely close to emo here. ah well maybe it's just this happy facade i'm trying to generate to deceive people?

alright not really deceive la, i'm not always all that emo. heh. =D

sigh literature CCT tomorrow! though it's unseen and there's nothing much i can do about it except read mrs seow's notes and pray really hard, but still it's traumatising going for a test unprepared.

-thinks of bio CCT- wow, i was soooo prepared for that test.

RJC Chorale's Limelight last night was pretty good i guess. considering the fact that my knowledge of choir borders zero, was quite surprised i could actually remotely appreciate it. though i dozed off a few times (i was so tired after an entire day in school >.<) yea i guess as a whole it was really much better than expected.

2008-05-05T20:28:00.001+08:00

now now. why is daron so sure he's going to fail biology?

ah well i guess it's simply the price to pay after regarding biology lessons to be afternoon/morning naps. but it's not exactly my fault that i failed to understand during the first lesson and subsequently all the lessons went by in a blur.

mmm. heh i know. i'm the one to blame. xD

ah well.

BIO DIE BIO. maybe let's replace that with daron die daron.

cool. alliteration.

2008-05-04T13:59:00.002+08:00

well if you're a little sucker who hates spoilers, go away this instant.

went for this movie expecting quite a lot of drama and action (considering the fact that both jet li and jackie chan were in this movie), and was relatively surprised to find them being somewhat sidecasted to be supporting roles, while the main role was given to this american boy jason (in a completely chinese-setting kind of movie). but yes, admittably michael angarano did fill in the role of a confused caucasian suddenly thrown into an ancient chinese kungfu-kickass setting pretty well, and i've no qualms whatsoever about his portrayal of the role, but my only complaint was the need to even have his character in the first place. why was there even a need to integrate this western element into a chinese movie like this? probably the only reason for that was to appeal to a wider audience (in america/europe/wherever) but even so it was a little tough understanding the need for a fusion of cultures.

with this fusion of cultures came another problem which i failed to understand through the course of the movie: how the hell do the characters in china switch seamlessly between english and mandarin? unless it was some language magic involved in this whole flying-between-dimensions mumbo jumbo then probably it would have been vaguely probable and plausible. now, why the different accents in the chinese actors/actresses' english? O_o while sparrow (liu yifei) could speak english so fluently and faultlessly i couldn't see why lu yan (jackie chan) and sun wukong/silent monk (jet li) had to speak english as though they were eating something while they were speaking.

ah well. the fight scenes were pretty much kickass (though a tad bit too laden with CG effects) so overall the movie wasn't too bad because of the fight scenes i guess. (especially the scene where they were fighting against the witch amongst the flowers).

mmm. anyway, just some reply to tags here.

yunfei: yea well rehearsal was somewhat fun but tiring, especially after an entire day in school. -yawns-
fei: i'm such a nice person hahaha how could you call me mean!
alvin: sigh why am i so surprised.
shzehui: yea well chat lingo is so annoying. hahahaha yes we must all study like silly little obedient singaporean students. how utterly depressing.
nicolette: NUUUUUUU go away. =D haha you really always sound so down in your blog what you emo pumpkin.
ben: what on earth is organic chem? O_o assume it must be some chemRA thing hahaha. good luck for bio too!
joe/chinjie: go away.

and why is daron so sure he'll fail biology on tuesday.

2008-05-03T15:19:00.004+08:00

yea, lyk i noe rite, de show wuz lyk so amazin i cld haf lyk totalli stood up n lyk clpped? it wuz lyk, so gd? LOL. so gd rite i noe lorh.

it amazes me sometimes how people survive typing in chat lingo, because firstly it's just oh-so-painful to read and decipher, and secondly, it doesn't even make sense!

oh wait that's not the worst, try this:

yA i nOe WoRx So KaWaIiX rItEx? <33

how utterly painful, and such a wonderful abuse of the english language. kudos!

i don't even know why i bother with such a bitchy post, but i guess reading people's blogs with sUcH lInGoX is just such a sorry pain in the arse.

and one more thing, what's with the use of LOL/ROFL/LMAO?!

it's like when i use it, it doesn't even mean anything! sure i say LMAO and behind this computer screen does my ass like fly off because i'm laughing the crap out of myself?

and when i say LOL i don't think there's even a slightest hint of a smile on my face. LOL? i'm like totally laughing.

ah well. talk about expressing yourself. O_o

i know, kick me for this post because it's just innately evil.

2008-05-03T11:18:00.001+08:00

boo!

alright i guess i really have nothing much to say hahahaha.

it's a saturday morning! watching forbidden kingdom later with family in what has to be like the first time in like a year. hehehe it's not often we have family outings considering how busy our schedules usually are.

heard sis drew her hockey match yesterday against ACJC, meaning they're out of the group stages or something. ah well, sad. but heard from dad&mum that she played really really well, so kudos to them. (:

failure is all a part of life no? we grow stronger from failures. as always.

heh easier said than done most of the time. getting over failure, that is.

2008-04-30T21:48:00.002+08:00

you know, i should really start a quotable quotes section in my blog.

everyone seems to have one. and it seems so funny and cool to have one.

for example, today in school...

jarret: math is heresy!
mrs seow: oh so are you calling ms cho a witch?

see? FUNNY.

you know, it's painful trying to be funny when nobody laughs at my jokes.

i mean, i do make good puns don't i?

HOW DARE YOU SAY I DON'T!

i shall PUNish you, you PUNy weakling.

LAUGH I SAY LAUGH!

):

you aren't amused are you.

OH I GOT ANOTHER PUN.

i swear people only pinch my cheeks for entertainment, and they have the cheek to tell me that.

GET IT? cheek?

oh i have one more! you know, lately the communication department of RIPB has been initiating this "be responsible" about your belongings campaign?

I HAVE A GOOD SLOGAN FOR THEM.

watch your wallet, or you will PAY.

get it?

GET IT?

okay nobody's amused. but this should get you amused.

desmond. says: (9:42:27 PM)
heh today i scored the winning goal for my team ok
daron (: the-entourage.blogspot.com says: (9:42:32 PM)
hahahahaha.
desmond. says: (9:42:43 PM)
i standing in front of the goal post
desmond. says: (9:42:48 PM)
then my right leg miss the ball
daron (: the-entourage.blogspot.com says: (9:42:53 PM)
never thought you could play soccer.
desmond. says: (9:42:58 PM)
then the ball tap my left leg then the keepr blur blur
desmond. says: (9:43:04 PM)
then it go in

hilarious i swear. xD

2008-04-28T20:35:00.002+08:00

math, simply put, was a complete disaster.

as always.

just ran out of time completely and panicked as i saw the "showing" question.

meaning i skipped it cos i made a silly careless mistake and only discovered it at the last minute.

meaning i know my math test score is going to be such a nightmare.

well on the bright side i don't have to worry about physics tomorrow.

______________ (insert evil suan regarding physics here)

it's fun suanning people. like, those who take physics.

MWUAHAHAHAHA.

i believe i suanned people about physics in the previous post already.

but then i tend to get horribly repetitive when it comes to my favourite habit (i.e. suanning people).

occupational hazard. from suanning people like nicolette and shayne too much.

whooooops.

2008-04-27T19:25:00.001+08:00

-gurgles and foams in mouth-

MATHEMATICS CCT. AND CHEMISTRY QUIZ. AND. AND. AND.

i was going to say physics, then i realised i didn't take physics. so...

MWUAHAHAHAHAHA.

PHYSICS PHYSICS.

okay i just had to write that to comfort myself into thinking that while i have 2 tests to suffer with, others have THREE!

THREE THREE THREE!

and according to inequalities:

3 > 2

see i have to integrate math into my thinking you know!

okay i'm not talking sense anymore.

beansprouts, anyone?

2008-04-26T23:05:00.001+08:00

army daze was, simply put, completely kickass.

enough said i guess. and for all you donkeys who missed it, shame on you. you had 3 opportunities to watch it and you missed all 3. how utterly disappointing. (:

2008-04-24T22:50:00.005+08:00

went for S24 last night, and as much as i feel tempted to write long long paragraphs lambasting RI's macbeth i shall not since it's probably not very nice.

i rethought what i originally felt about the play and i guess my reactions were just a little too compulsive and exaggerated, and was probably just because i expected a hell lot more from RI considering the amount of effort they put into rehearsals and all, but ah well i know they did their best best best!

so kudos to RI's macbeth (: and the cool puppets. somewhat. plus a tragedy would probably be a lot harder to portray and to connect with the audience, since the range of emotions had to be a lot larger and obvious, but yes it is undeniable that they put in their best (like i said) so i shall be nice cos i think they did a fantastic job with the concept. probably just needed to refine their acting than it'll be good. like, really really really good.

hwachong's twelfth night, meanwhile, was like a complete reversal from RI's macbeth (peripeteia? ah well i have to link literature with everything now right. ><) since while the acting in macbeth was probably just a little too dead and unconvincing, hwachong's twelfth night was just a little too over the top, to the extent that the acting seemed a little disjointed and awkward sometimes (by the supporting roles, that is. the main actors [especially the girl who played viola] were just wooooosh so good!).

BUT. while the humour was little too crude for some people's likings (i didn't find it that crude though i thought it brought a very nice modern touch to the play =D) i've gotta admit the play did crack me up. it was hilarious. really.

FINALLY, we have RJC's a midsummer night's dream. 1 word: FABULOUS. everything in the play fit together so well: the acting, the costumes, the backdrop, the chemistry, the concept, everything! was really fantastic watching our RJC seniors acting, and it really showed us how much we had to live up to considering how awesome their play was.

NO I'M NOT BEING BIASED JUST COS I OH-SO-LOVE-RAFFLES BUT REALLY. YOU GOTTA ADMIT THE COSTUMES WERE REAL PRETTY. (: okay never mind i'm not talking coherently anymore.

S24 was pretty good i guess. thank goodness.

army daze on saturday night 8pm! good luck to raffles players yea. i know you guys will kick ass. jia you! =DD

2008-04-19T23:35:00.006+08:00

this post shall be entitled desmond the bimbo.

[gregory.ant] somewhat dead-ed. says: (11:34:59 PM)
yea la yea la desmond can be next SK2 promoter la.
desmond. says: (11:35:00 PM)
i use cleanser, toner and facial scrub every night

beauty tips.

desmond. says: (11:40:57 PM)
we can meet at midnight
desmond. says: (11:41:04 PM)
so its midnight for everyone
daron >.<>
BIMBO.
[gregory.ant] somewhat dead-ed. says: (11:41:30 PM)
omg. you're so simplistic i could cry.
desmond. says: (11:41:30 PM)
i tot 24hr difference

(referring to time difference between canada and singapore)

desmond. says: (11:43:05 PM)
verbal diarrhorea
daron >.<>.<>i spelt it for him at least 5 times already.

[gregory.ant] somewhat dead-ed. says: (11:49:36 PM)
i wanna go watch Temple.
daron >.<>
what show is that?
desmond. says: (11:49:44 PM)
yeah
desmond. says: (11:49:46 PM)
wads dat
[gregory.ant] somewhat dead-ed. says: (11:49:46 PM)
it's some time in june.
desmond. says: (11:49:50 PM)
some vesak day special?

um. okay.

2008-04-14T21:04:00.001+08:00

WELL DONE RUGBY B DIV.

you guys put up a damn good fight.

and i felt the rafflesian spirit within me. i don't even know how to describe the feeling. but when we sang the institution anthem and cheered our hearts out, i realised what it meant to be a rafflesian.

today's the day i'm goddamned proud to be a rafflesian.

raffles forever <3

2008-04-13T14:39:00.003+08:00

these are the times when i get so amused at my juniors. heh. read the following sms from nicholas syn.

"Here are 7 words to describe you as my good friend: kind, adorable, nice, empathetic, sociable, amicable and intelligent. So in short you are K.E.N.A.S.A.I. Haha... Send this to as many friends as you can Happy Friends week! (This is lame Lol.)"

hilarious i tell you. why does my life always get plagued by amusing childish juniors.

-looks pointedly at desmond lee-

oops. too loud. (:

2008-04-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

uh.

_______________________ (insert random interesting post here.)

not really in a mood to post now. not when my brain is still in a whirl.

woosh woosh woosh.

insanity.

2008-04-12T21:33:00.001+08:00

2008-04-12T20:23:00.004+08:00

well ORA day was pretty much a bore, and probably just overhyped (what with all the hard planning from god knows who) but then ah well i cannot really judge because i assume there was some planning involved (even though it probably wasn't that evident.)

was horribly bored and annoyed the entire day i guess, and when i got home i just slept through and woke up at 7.30. yay, so much for a revision schedule.

edit: the top 2 paragraphs about ORA was just an exaggeration, cos i wrote it in a wild attempt to spite someone. ><

sigh. i think you can tell this post is pretty much forced because i have no choice to post here now since i've removed all readership to my emo blog no?

sigh.

2008-04-08T19:22:00.001+08:00

[referring to gregory shaving his hair for RP production]

daron (: the-entourage.blogspot.com says: (7:22:05 PM)
he'll look retarded!
daron (: the-entourage.blogspot.com says: (7:22:08 PM)
like you.
desmond. says: (7:22:10 PM)
ya lorh

why do i get so amused talking to this kid.

2008-04-08T17:59:00.002+08:00

mister antono congratulations on CAP. so much for not caring about CAP yea. xD

ah well i've been abandoning this blog yea. guess i've just been busy as hell lately, and i don't even know what to post anymore.

i need random happy puffy thoughts to post you know. right now my mood is just...

--------- <-- straight line

nvm i have no idea what i'm saying.

2008-03-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

yes i know i haven't been posting.

it's difficult to maintain two blogs you know. like, i said i would post here if i was happy and i would post in other blog if i were emo.

so you get the idea.

(:

2008-03-16T11:25:00.002+08:00

this video made me feel so sad. and so guilty, because here i am, caught up in my own petty problems while being oblivious to the outside world.

heh, today i make a promise, whatever i become in the future, i will help people. i've never wanted to be some super successful rich asshole, but really, all i want is to help these people who need our help.

heh no it's not politically correct crap again! ah well, i can't bear to think of people suffering while i'm okay. because no one should have to feel pain. no one.

2008-03-15T23:13:00.001+08:00

and no there aren't going to be interesting funny posts here because most of my posts go to my emo blog nowadays. so... yea. it's gonna be pretty empty here.

2008-03-15T23:11:00.001+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

heh i swear i'm in love with this song la! such a beautiful ballad. so heartfelt and emooooo. xD ah well daron is addicted to emo tracks. hahahahahahaha.

2008-03-12T21:31:00.001+08:00

HowManyOfMe.com

There are
0
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

now why am i so surprised that no one else (in the US) shares my name. found this random thingie on chia's blog so CHIA I BLAME YOU FOR MAKING ME RANDOM. heh i probably already am as random as i can get so i guess i really shouldn't be pointing fingers no? xD

2008-03-12T18:32:00.000+08:00

WHY. WHY HAS MY TAGBOARD BEEN DEAD.

i demand all you little fools who come to my blog to tag. like, TAAAAAAG.

and it's fun having two blogs. like, feeling random and high, come here. feeling down and emo, go to the other blog. but then the other blog's only for me to read since it's password protected so lalalalalala. xD even if you have the link you can't read it! =D (and for you dumbdumbs who didn't realise i was even nice enough to provide the link on the left. see, i'm so kind)

i'm probably just feeling freaking random right now so ignore me. (:

LA LA LA. I SIAO ALREADY.

2008-03-11T12:50:00.002+08:00

okay i think i shall create a separate blog just for emoing. like you know, an emo-blog. hahahahahaha okay i am just freaking random.

sentosa outing was just a blast, but i really am just way too tired to post about it, and i'm watiting for photos (MR LAW KAILUN GREGORY SEND TO MEEEEE) so yea no updates about it for now.

and ignore me if i say i'm miserable, because i am/am not/am/have no idea what i'm feeling.

there, off to create my emo-blog.

2008-03-09T00:58:00.004+08:00

because i'm such a nice person, and because i know this person deserves this,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREGORY ANTONO!

well i've known you for 2 years plus now, and now that you're 15, must get more hardworking and mature yea. don't get emo so often because your friends around you get emo too, and sing more yea. =D cos your singing rocks and you know it so don't be afraid to pursue your dream k. =DD

hahahahahaha.

2008-03-05T20:35:00.003+08:00

haha call me jealous, call me stupid, call me delusional, i don't really know or want to know. i've never really taken life all that seriously until you came along and changed my thinking a hell lot. guess because of you i really started to think about my priorities in life, and what i should treasure or not treasure in my life.

ah well friendships can be really really complicated sometimes. or maybe it's just me who makes everything so complicated through my overtly complex thinking. maybe because sometimes i tend to think a little too much, and the fact that i've gone through a huge change in my life (by taking things/people a hell lot more seriously now, although i'm still as nuts as ever) really means something to me.

ROAR. hahahaha okay daron needs to hyperventilate and get high!

i swear to god i'm not insane heh! madtv parody of whitney houston and mariah carey go to youtube to check. hilarious i tell you. (i'm just too lazy to post the video here)

ah well die history (well it is dead, so get the irony? HAHAHAHAHA.)

i know, i've such a fabulous sense of humour. xD

woohoo if that's how you want things to end up i guess i really have no qualms because somethings are just really out of my reach. i've tried to be straightforward and tell you but obviously you're oblivious to negative reactions and feelings. no it's not a criticism.

i should stop using my blog as airing space. because most of the time my airing is directed at individuals. okay i shall make this my last evilly directed post. heh i sound like some lord voldermort.

everybody finds new friends, and finds their own true callings, so i guess i really have no moral obligations to hold on to this. i'll just let go.

2008-03-05T19:16:00.001+08:00

heh i noticed that the stronger an emotional bond i create with an object/person/thing/whatever, the harder for me to break this bond.

yea well i know it's probably common-sensical and obvious but i'd never really notice how true the statement was.

ah well.

heh left with history and social studies PT then it'll be lala land! (march holidays!)

and why can't i wait for the hols to come. because...

hols = SLEEP!

yay. xD

2008-03-05T15:40:00.001+08:00

HELLO WORLD DARON SAYS HI FROM KEMAMA SHOP.

from samuel swee's laptop specifically. heh koped his laptop! HELLO HELLO! =DD

ok daron is freaking random and bored while doing his kemama duty. xD

2008-03-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

heh and daron swears he just ate too much sugar or took some highness-inducing drug, because currently daron feels really crazy and hyperactive!

-runs around singing-

ah well crazy crazy crazy la dee dah dee doo.

oh and have i mentioned how the deadline for ss newspaper was changed to thursday? like, without any prior notice?

so much for sleeping at 2.30am to rush out the newspaper.

but never mind daron's in a really good mood now so yea.

his mood might just take a violent swing later though. unpredictability.

wakakakakakaka.

no, edit: it's...

MUSHASHASHASHASHA!

dedicated to the person trying to act like paula abdul on drugs today. hilarious i tell you.

2008-03-02T16:27:00.002+08:00

DARON'S AWESOME ATTEMPT AT HIS SOCIAL STUDIES PERFORMANCE TASK.

Elimination of money causing financial crisis?
The government's recent policy to eliminate the need of money has caused backlash from conservative economic critics OH I DON'T GIVE A DAMN DARN YOU SOCIAL STUDIES AND STUPID STUPID PERFORMANCE TASKS.

March 2, 2008 -- SINGAPORE. Utopia is impossible it's impossible it's impossible why do you even bother asking us to do a silly stupid dumb foolish newspaper about utopia when you know full well that utopia is impossible! If it were possible it'd been established ages ago so STOP TORTURING OUR POOR SANITIES. damn.

there you go. why am i so sure we're going to get full marks for our newspaper? xD

2008-03-02T11:24:00.001+08:00

and well, i'm sorry i keep using my blog as airing space, which results in no funny random posts coming from me, but hey, this is the only place i can think of where i can air my thoughts.

and if i just kept my thoughts in there i thought i might just go nuts, but i realised i wouldn't, so never mind. (:

AHAHAHAHAHA WATCH THIS SPACE. FUNNY STUPID RANDOM BLONDE POSTS COMING UP SOON.

sometime soon. when i'm done with ss and history/decide not to do ss and history. ahahahahaha =D whichever comes first.

2008-03-02T11:08:00.004+08:00

ah well. i look at the petty little problems in my life and now all i can think to myself is "get over it."

and i shall. why waste energy feeling down and hating things around me.

i don't know what really got over me this year. all my life i admit i've been good at masking emotions. keeping it inside me. just controlling myself.

but this year i seem to have lost this emotional control over myself. i repeatedly lose my temper, get violent mood swings, show explicitly when i feel upset and frustrated.

disadvantages of being a right-brainer.

but now, all my emotions are going back inside me. i will not let emotions rule my head again.

(: now to social studies and history i go. die performance tasks die!

i know i can't keep holding on to this, so i'm just gonna let go.

2008-03-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

these songs just make me want to cry.

and no, i'm not ready to make nice.

open defiance shit. don't expect me to do so.

sorry for being imperfect, but no, i won't be nice to you anytime soon.

2008-03-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

so much for being an emotional wreck.

i used to keep blaming my roller coaster of emotions on stress and fatigue.

you know, "oh i have PI so i'm like so stressed" or "oh i have CCTs so sleep-deprived".

well, these are all over, and still, there really is no difference to my mood swings.

i'm still as sensitive to people around as ever.

i'm still as bitchy to everyone around as ever.

i'm still worried about the slightest things around ever.

and worst of all i still lose my temper regularly so often.

and i'm out of excuses to blame these on. except blaming myself.

i seem to sense an entire replay of the episode a two weeks ago.

i always advocated that when people hurt themselves intentionally, the only people they hurt are those around them who loved them and held them dear.

but who loves me anyway?

this cut is for you, bitch.

2008-03-01T15:07:00.000+08:00

was just reading through 1P's old forum, and found this really interesting post.

TWO TOUGH QUESTIONS

Question 1:

If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the answer for this one.

Question 2:

It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three leading candidates.

Candidate A - Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two Mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B - He was kicked ou t of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C - He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be your Choice?

Decide first, no peeking, then scroll down for the answer. ----------------------------------------------

Candidate A: is Franklin D. Roosevelt.

Candidate B: is Winston Churchill.

Candidate C: is Adolph Hitler.

And, by the way, the answer to the abortion question: If you said yes, you just killed Beethoven.

Pretty interesting isn't it? Makes a person think before judging someone. Never be afraid to try something new.

Remember:

Amateurs built the Ark

Professionals built the Titanic

Which one sank?

and in case you never saw this one.. ....

Can you imagine working for a company that has a little more than 500 employees and has the following statistics:

29 have been accused of spousal abuse

7 have been arrested for fraud

19 have been accused of writing bad checks

117 have directly or indirectly bankrupted at least 2 businesses

3 have done time for assault

71 cannot get a credit card due to bad credit

14 have been arrested on drug-related charges

8 have been arrested for shoplifting

21 are currently defendants in lawsuits

84 have been arrested for drunk driving in the last year

Can you guess which organization this is?

Give up yet?

It's the 535 members of the United States Congress. The same group of idiots that crank out hundreds of new laws each year designed to keep the rest of us in line.

2008-03-01T13:06:00.004+08:00

you know sometimes i find it how fascinating astrologies and birthdays rubbish can define what i am sometimes?

and it's painfully hilarious to find how close to the truth these predictions are.

from facebook:

Chinese Symbols	Animal Symbol	Ancient Symbol	Element Symbol

	The Monkey	The Extend	Water
Brief Description	Monkeys are very popular and have a magnetic personality. They can however get very competitive.
Positive Traits	reasonable, faithful, autonomous, candid, altruistic, successful, inventive, co-operative, loving, intelligent, individualistic and generous entertainers
Negative Traits	hyperemotional, capricious, guileful, self-indulgent, immature, insecure, indifferent, careless, gullible, petty and grabby scene-stealers
General Description of All Monkeys	Monkeys are fun-loving people who really enjoy a good time with friends, family or anyone else for that matter. They love practical jokes and like to play tricks on colleagues and friends alike. Monkeys tend to stir up trouble simply out of boredom, which can end up being more hurtful than they intended. Often, when this causes trouble, they expect others to understand it was all a joke and to deal with the consequences on their own. Monkeys are curious creatures as well. Some people call them nosy. Others call them interested. The Chinese say they are just downright curious. Although gifted with a strong intellect, creativity and intuition are nor their fortes. They can't put themselves in your shoes even if they try and will become easily distracted or confused.
Detailed Description of The Water Monkey	Water gives this Monkey sensitivity. He is easily hurt by the words or actions of others. For protection, these Monkeys usually wear a game face, preferring not to share their emotions or feelings with others. If they play their cards right and pay attention they can be quite successful. However, if they become distracted, these Monkeys can become consumed with gossip or meddlesome activities.

2008-03-01T11:24:00.001+08:00

oh wait have i mentioned how i found my latest favourite bookstore?

well it always used to be kinokuniya but then sometimes i'd always get so pissed how kino was always freaking crowded and the books were all over the place.

well, went to suntecs last night with mum to meet dad, and found this really awesome bookshop. yea well it's under popular but they call it harris. and the best thing about that place is that everything's really neat, it's not really that crowded, and the stock of books are pretty good!

=DD

you can guess what happened next after daron entered the bookstore.

i term it as retail therapy.

oops.

2008-03-01T11:08:00.004+08:00

OKAY OKAY OKAY I KNOW I SHOULD BE DOING MY SOCIAL STUDIES AND HISTORY PERFORMANCE TASKS BUT IT DOESN"T HURT TO JUST DROP BY AND SAY HELLO.

so like, ELLLOOOOOOOO. i am lindsay lohan.

for you fools who don't know what i meant go watch achmed the dead terrorist on youtube. NO I'M NOT ENCOURAGING YOU TO SIN BY IGNORING YOUR WORK FOR YOUTUBE I DIDN"T THREATEN YOU WITH A KNIFE TO WATCH THAT VIDEO.

(but you should watch the video because it's really good!)

now daron shall go back to angsting about social studies and history.

so much for utopia and black death.

and i swear i'm just a tad bit melodramatic. just a little bit yea. =D

2008-02-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

i noticed how i always get these hunger pangs closer to midnight.

so right now i'm stuffing myself with gummies and this chris and larry's clodhoppers chocolate fudge graham wafer clusters thingie.

meaning i'm fat.

and that i need to diet.

OH CURSE YOU SINFUL TEMPTING DELICIOUS MARVELLOUS SNACKS.

-gobbles down more gummies-

i think they should create a line of carbo/fat-free snacks that taste like Lay's and chocolate without the fat content. nah never gonna happen.

2008-02-28T21:05:00.002+08:00

got this off facebook.

12 January

Lucky Color:
Aubergine (according to wiki, aubergine "is a brownish-purple color that resembles eggplants". ok...)

Personality Strengths:
Style, Charisma (um. really? never noticed.)

Personality Weakness(es):
Impatience (how true. hahaha xD)

Successful Career Path:
Entrepreneurship (what in the world. that requires numbers and i hate numbers so forget it.)

Sense of Humor Style:
Campy (deliberately exaggerated and theatrical in style, according to my dictionary. thanks facebook for calling me drama! -.-)

Adjectives to Describe You:
courageous, upredictable (courageous? nah. unpredictable, hahahahaha.)

Description:
Passionate and proud - you stand very firmly on issues you truly believe in. (woah. really?) Unrelentless and driven - you are willing to work very hard when you have to. (haha sure look i have 2 PTs due next week but i'm blogging! so much for hard work) While not an angry person by nature, you can be hot-tempered when things aren't going your way. (fine. i won't deny this one.)

2008-02-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

i shall attempt to reply some tags now since i never reply tags nowadays i realise.

like, whoops.

richard: hahahaha my blog very random meh. nah randomness is perfectly fine because everyone is random to a certain extent. HISTORY MEHHHH. =D

nicolette: pinchable meh. ok i'm fat need a diet. =D

bryan: hahaha it's ok i don't consider that paedophilic since i find the picture so unlike the gregory we know today. hahahahahaha =D ooops.

gregory: sorry la i enjoy multi-postings. xD hahahaha usually i only do multiple-posts when i'm really really bored so... yea. =D when the heck do they air the arena anyway.

um. ok i find this so pointless.

2008-02-28T18:48:00.004+08:00

dim sum dollies was just completeLEE, totaLEE, fortunateLEE, luckiLEE FABULOUS AND AWESOME.

it was really funny and witty, portraying singapore's history in such a funny and comical fashion but i could not help but laugh at how "distorted" the truths seem sometime.

kamikaze karaoke? you gotta be kidding me.

the dim sum dollies and their chopstick SELENA PAM AND EMMA and HOSSAN were just FANTASTIC. they had fantastic synergy and their energy and humour was just fabulous.

AND I AM TELLLLLING YOU, I'M NOT GOING.

(at this point only greg and i started laughing like mad because apparently only greg and i watched dreamgirls. everyone else just stoned, thinking it was powerful belting self-composed song)

i know the last show is tonight, (in like 2 hours) but you should really catch the dim sum dollies if they ever come back for a rerun.

i admit i wasn't in the best of moods last night, but it wasn't helping that you two kept ignoring kailun and i. i think it's just me who's sensitive, but it's just so pissing sometimes when you guys start becoming oblivious to those around you except to each other.

rawr. why do i start thinking about random things suddenly all the time.

2008-02-26T19:43:00.004+08:00

i'd never have thought this ever possible while we were still working so hard, but:

WE DID IT! (yatta!) =D

PI'08 was such a blast! okay it probably wasn't all as impressive or grandeur as we had originally anticipated, but in my opinion simplicity is still the best way to convey sincerity, and although there were mistakes here and there (from the AV side) the sheer fact that we carried on despite these difficulties and continued enjoying ourselves is just oh-so-fabulous!

i'm just so freaking proud of being part of this awesome group called RIPB now.

(for photos go to xanga.com/gregoryant because i really don't see the point of copying the photos then pasting it here because it'd just a waste of time.)

despite the fact that we had to come back to school so many times on weekends and stay back on tuesday/thursday evenings, despite the fact that on the last night before PI we stayed all the way till 12+ (well at least i did xD), despite the constant surge of emotions and bickering between all of us, i must say, I <3 RIPB and PI'08!

JUMP! leave your heartprint. and i know i will.

2008-02-24T23:13:00.004+08:00

guess what i found while googling. (i swear i have an inner stalker in me because i google so many people.)

do we see someone we know in this photo?

OH LOOK THAT LITTLE BOY IS POUTING IN THE PHOTO.

-dies laughing-

and to that little boy: CHEER UP AND SMILE LA. don't so stress. i'll always be here to help yea. (:

2008-02-24T19:31:00.002+08:00

i declare myself bored from math so here goes.

1) Put your playlist on random.
2) Type out the first line of the first 10 songs you hit.
3) Form a story with the first lines.

While all the time that I was loving you (Mary J Blige - I'm not gonna Cry)

People always talk about (Jamelia - Superstar)

Come Mr. DJ song pon de replay (Rihanna - Pon de Replay)

Incompatible, it don't matter though (Natasha Beddingfield - Soulmate)

I can't stand to fly (Five for Fighting - Superman)

Is it worth it, let me work it (Missy Elliot - Work it)

I keep on fallin in love with you (Alicia Keys - Fallin')

I put your picture on my mirror (Fantasia - When I See U)

Let me hear you say Hey, Hey, Hey (Avril Lavigne - The Best Damn Thing)

Ever since the day you ran away (Natalie - Going Crazy)

connecting all those with punctuation and omitting some useless words and adding some connectors i'd get this:

While all the time that I was loving you, people always talk about Mr. DJ's song "Pon de replay". Incompatible, it doesn't matter though I can't stand to fly. Is it worth it, let me work it. I keep on fallin in love with you when I put your picture on my mirror, so let me hear you say "Hey, Hey, Hey" since the day you ran away.

evidently daron is extremely bored so mind the sheer stupidity of this post.

2008-02-24T18:57:00.001+08:00

i notice how i always post multiple times in a single day.

OKAY DARON TAN TIME TO MOVE YOUR FAT BUTT OF THE COMPUTER AND START STUDYING HARD FOR CEE CEE TEEs.

ok i'll need to use my computer. cos my solutions for math supp exercises are on the comp. but for good measure i shall turn off my airport [wireless internet on mac]. MWUAHAHAHAHA.

(you know i can't bring myself to do that.)

oh rawr screw internet/facebook/youtube/msn/blog addiction.

i swear to do my work now (it's 7pm.)

OH LOOK IT'S ACHMED THE DEAD TERRORIST!

-runs to youtube throwing math worksheets into the dustbin along the way-

2008-02-24T11:53:00.003+08:00

and i swear i'm gonna die of clogged arteries or high cholestrol or a heart failure really really soon, cos i've been binging on chocolates these days.

i mean, i brought back one big ziploc bag of macadamia nuts coated with chocolates with penang just 2 weeks ago, and i've almost finished the entire thing already.

but hey i can't help it it tastes so good.

ok time to diet.

xD

update: i just finished the last chocolate. so much for going on a diet.

2008-02-24T10:27:00.001+08:00

Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I’ve been down this road before

I’ll never quit
I’ll never lay down
See I promised myself I would never let me down

So I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fade
I’ll just get up and try again
Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for a place ashore
I’m gonna win

Won’t stop me now
There’s still a ways to go
Some way somehow
Whatever it takes I know

I’ll never quit
I’ll never go down
I’ll make sure they remember my name 100 years from now

heh music can be so inspirational no?

RIPB INVESTITURE '08. JUMP! leave your heartprint.

<33 gonna be a blast!

2008-02-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

i promised myself i would stay happy. i promised myself i would be positive. i promised myself never to lose my temper again.

but ah well i lost it today. i guess it's been really stressful lately so i've been really unable to keep my emotions in check. and it doesn't help that i let my emotions and feelings rule my head all the time. disadvantages of being a right-brainer.

I never read your letter
'Cause I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try to make it all okay

sometimes i wonder how stupid i can get.

NO I'M NOT EMO. i'm just tired la. ): i need my sleep.

2008-02-19T22:14:00.002+08:00

somehow i notice i only blog when i have emo stuff to say.

SO PEOPLE WILL INTERPRET ME TO BE SOME EMO KIA WHO SLASHES HIS WRISTS ON A REGULAR BASIS.

haha what utter rubbish.

ah well but really i have nothing to say.

-bursts out laughing-

2008-02-18T22:05:00.001+08:00

goodbye emo shit.

hello happy daron with a brand new attitude to life!

(:

sunshine again. (:

2008-02-18T20:34:00.003+08:00

stop doing this to me!

i hate you daron. stop it!

i will pull through this. with all the might i have left.

but it's tiring.

found this poem that i wrote in class today.

I need this pain.
Please, I beseech you.
Don't even try to stop me,
For I want it so bad.
I yearn for it,
And I deserve this pain.

Let's just call it my punishment,
Let's just regard this as my retribution.
But if it hurts you that much,
Then don't look.
For what you can't see can't hurt.
And I need this release so bad.

This sweet, wrenching pain.

save me.

2008-02-18T19:58:00.003+08:00

and i just got back from another day of school.

i look at the underneath of my forearm and i suddenly feel afraid.

the worst thing is i don't even remember why and what compelled me to do such things to myself.

the marks scare me. although it doesn't hurt anymore, i have no idea why or what i was doing. causing pain to myself? self-mutilation?

call me a masochist, call me irrational, call me crazy. but i think that the only time i felt released from my emotional burden was when i was feeling physical pain. and it felt good.

or at least i think it did. the red marks all over my hand should say something.

i swear i'm going crazy.

they trying to make me go to rehab, but i said no, no, no.

someone help me. i can't take this no more.

2008-02-18T02:13:00.001+08:00

it's 2.15am in the midnight and i can't get to sleep.

it's painful.

2008-02-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

and how ironic is it that only after i hurt the people i love and hold dear to myself do i realise my mistakes.

it hurts. so much. but even at this time i still cannot believe that i want to get through this by myself.

i've never trusted myself all my life. i've gone through enough in life to tell me that best friend relationships never do work out. best friends is but a gimmick to seem that you are close to someone else.

in reality, you never did trust that person.

or is it just the case with me?

i wonder when i can open up that valve holding back all the things i've wanted to say all my life. to someone i can finally learn to trust.

and i'd thought i'd never say this.

and it's midnight but my weekend work and revision lays completely undone in front of me, but i know there are more pressing things i have to do.

reflect.

2008-02-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

All my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost
How many dark nights have I known

Walking down that wrong road, there was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness-can make a person blind
But now I can see

I am changing, tryin every way I can

emo shit.

2008-02-17T20:52:00.005+08:00

sometimes the simplest things just make me feel the most guilty and the most ashamed.

i guess i've never felt more ashamed of myself in my entire 15 years of living before. i guess you could say that all my life i've been a really proud person. sure, i emo here and there, but i've never felt guilty about what i am and angry at myself for being someone i shouldn't be before.

and i realise that this arrogance is effectively going to cost me my life, my friends, and the fact that i'll never have people trusting me.

i really don't know what i'm thinking sometimes. sometimes i marvel at the good things i do, sometimes i gawk at the bad things i do, but i realise that all this time, i've never really thought of myself as a person. about my virtues, about my morals, about how i act.

and today it just all became really clear to me. that all this time my attitude is pretty one much that is of an asshole.

all my life i've been denying the flaws that i have in me. and today i think it's time to expose my flaws to myself. not to everyone else, because i think everyone knows perfectly well what kind of a person i am, and probably resent my flaws.

and today i think i've found this bravery (oh cursed bravery) to expose my sins to myself.

i won't deny that i'm elitist. and that i'm a really arrogant person who thinks pretty highly of myself (or at least that's what i think i appear to be)

i won't even bothering to deny that i would never take the blame for myself. anything goes wrong, i'd always try my best to push the blame away. to some innocent scapegoat who probably did less right things than i did wrong.

i admit that i would never say i'm sorry. that i'm stubborn, hot-headed, and get mad at people all the time for the most invalid reasons. and that i pass unfair judgement and would never listen to other people's point-of-views.

i admit that i'm irritating. and that i get on people's nerves all the time and the fact that i'm probably attention-deficit. i guess this is linked to my arrogance. no i won't deny it this time. i'm probably freaking attention-grabbing. i want attention to myself.

and i get jealous of people all the time. no matter how much i try to deny it i admit i try too hard to mimic the popular people i see. i've never been confident of myself yet i try to be this stuck-up bitch who thinks he's mr-perfect.

i'll also admit i'm stubborn. i'll probably never listen to the advice people give me, and even though i may appear to people that i care and would listen, at the end of the day, i'll probably just go "what the shit i don't care."

and i also know that i'm probably pretty manipulative. what i want, i will and must get it. i guess i'm just a cunning backstabbing asshole. whatever i do has a purpose, no matter how much i try to mask it. i'm selfish, alright. i am.

i guess all i have to say in this post is that i'm sorry. to everyone who i've treated like shit, to everyone i've not treated well.

and i cannot believe i made this post public. i would never have. but i think it's time for me to make a change in my life.

i must change.

i know this is cliched shit and all, but is it too late to apologise?

i'll try.

and i suppose crisis picked a bad time to strike (before CCTs week). i don't really care. i will fail CCTs and must if it's necessary for me to make this transition in life. this change in my life.

and once again, i'm sorry.

2008-02-17T20:37:00.002+08:00

what i made myself promise not to or NEVER do again just two days ago during my emo period happened again.

really, a leopard never changes its spots.

but no, i will not follow old sayings. i will and must defy them.

i'm so sorry to the one i've hurt. why did i have to be so insensitive. ):

old habits never change. i'll prove that just wrong.

and i swear life just keeps crashing down around me. but no, i will hold it up, with all the strength i have, and all the strength i do not have.

i just wonder whether that's humanely possible sometimes.